Drama ! so fun

[Collin Sivlin]

And believe me... I wish more than anything that I ment that I was joining theater in my school or something.

But that is not the case- and it never will be.

As you may or may not know, my father ran away from my family about a year...maybe a little more ago like he ran from anything else that was too much for him, leaving me- a practicaly crippled 15 year old incharge of all of my siblings...and as I found out about half a year ago, my mom.

While I'm not 'crippled' anymore after having that suprise surgery, I've also had to take care of our 45 horse breeding and sales ranch with the help of only two staff members. Where was my mom in all of that? You guessed it. Going out spending MY money that I earned on freaking BEER and almost full nights at a bar. I put up with it knowing that sooner or later- she'd leave us too. This is exactly what my dad did before he left us.

I was prepared.

But then things changed- just 2 weeks ago some guy shows up with my mom and she tells me he's going to be my new dad. yeah right. I hate this guy. He's just like her...just like my dad. Already they 'plan to get married' and he's moved into our house as of 4 days ago. And now he and my mom are making plans to sell the ranch that I WORKED FOR because I DIDN'T WANT OUR FAMILY TO SUFFER. The ranch that a- now 16 year old took care of practicaly ALONE. They're going to sell my horses. my stuff. And they're expecting me to be fine with it. Whats more, any time I argue when I'm alone with him- Ryan, he threatens me. Yesterday he hit me in a place I'd rather not speak of. I'm done.

I stayed this long just because my siblings needed someone to take care of them. I tried. But they dont seem to care and so neither will I. Let my mom waste everything I ever wanted and tried for. I'm not going to stand by and watch. In the next few days I plan to saddle Sterling and run away. No goodbyes to them, no notes. Maybe I'm doing what my Dad did... but its his fault. I'm not going to be beaten every day again. I'm not going to have everything taken from me again. I'm not running away- they'll find me I'm sure. But I cant be taken back. Maybe after a while of being on my own I'll come back to you guys. For now I need to work things out. Miranda I'm sorry about this... I dont know what to say to you guys other than that I'll miss you and that life stinks. Get over it.


I love you guys.

[Charlie Parker]

I'm so sorry Ada! That's horrible... you should run away to Montana, I'm sure my boys would get along with Sterling. I'll pray for you!

Love ya,
Jess

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[E. Johnson]

Oh my god! That's horrible. ]: I'm so sorry, too. I know how you feel. I honestly do. But I hope you and Sterling both find a safe place to stay. :]

iLY
Erica

[Collin Sivlin]

I've found a semi safe place to stay. Still no contact from my family. I don't think they've even filed a missing persons report.

I've been gone for 10 days but I'm lucky to have- about three days ago, found a small farm to stay at. They're boarding Sterling in exchange for my work, and I sleep in his stall in a cot. I may move on but this place works for now. I have enough money to pay for two meals a day so I'm doing good I think. Thanks guys for the sympathy xD And Jess, believe me if I could ride from Texas to Montana I would xD Buut...Ster can't go that far with his ankle being the way it is. 100 miles was enough for us xD

love you guys <3





note that if anyone wants to contact me, email me at [e-mail]. I dont check my email often though so bear with me

[Cheyenne Kings}]

I'm praying for you Ada!! I'm glad you guys found a safe place to stay for now... keep us updated okay?

Much love,

&hearts Chey

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[Collin Sivlin]

You guys have no idea how much I miss you.

I've had to go down to eating one meal a day so I've felt realy crappy lately to tell you the truth. I'm still in the same place sleeping in Sterling's stall, but I'm going to have to contact Max soon. I'm finding it almost impossible to live on my own, and I haven't been in school since I left. The public schools dont know because I'm homeschooled...but I need to learn still. Sterling is still healthy but two of his four shoes had come off. I cant afford more but I guess he doesnt need them.

Love you guys and still hoping to come back sooner or later!

[alayna vladimer]

OMG HUN!! Thats sooo horrible! I know how you feel though I ran away from home as well a few months ago, but I was lucky and had a place that I could go. Where in Texas are you? If you dont want to say on here that is fine just pm me then. I live in Texas and I might be able to try and find someone to help you and your horse.

Love,
Ace

[-- abbey levesque.]

come to my house, i live in texas! xD but we only have five acres, so you probably wouldn't like it much. i'm praying for you, i hope everything works out. and no more being hungry! i'm baking you cookies(:

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[Collin Sivlin]

You guys are so sweet <3 I think things will be alright now though. I had Max come take Ster two days ago and bring him to his place- I'm trying to decide whether or not to sell him or not. 99.9% of me doesnt want to because he's pretty much my only family left and we've been through hell togather- but a teeny part of me knows I cant care for him the way I want to, and I'm doing him a dis-service and am just being selfish. And if I were the one to sell him, atleast he would go to someone I felt right about instead of just a dealer like he would of been. I dunno

But anyways- he's safe for now and I'm going to be paid about 8$ an hour to work at this ranch instead of boarding Ster so that means food. Ofcourse now I need to find a place to stay. Once I have all of that settled I'll hopefuly start school again although it will be a huge change. I've never been in public school in my life. And theres the problem that I'd have to identify myself and if there is a missing persons report filed for me; I'm out of luck. anyways you guys probably dont care about that xD

The librarian is giving me a horrible look now so I'd better go.

<333 Ada

[Collin Sivlin]

So I decided that even though things have been rough, God must be watching over me; and caring.

Sterling had to be sold...and it just about killed me to see him walk off. It was the best thing for him though- and I know that. Like the saying goes, sometimes love is being able to let go.

But on a much lighter note- and a strange note at that- I'm married. Yes, married at not even 18 years old. Max, for whatever crazy reason, asked me to marry him a month ago. With all of my flaws, my history, my now waay underweightness and I'm sure; now ugliness (I refuse to look in the mirror XD). He's absolutely crazy- but I could never repay him for what he's done. Ever.

I'm actually very suprised that it worked out though. In order for us to feel...right about moving in together we wanted to get married immediately. But ofcourse, the Texas laws stood in the way. Neither of us are 18, and you have to have parent permission before marrying otherwise. He wont be for a few months still and neither will I. Soooo... I took my chances and I contacted my mom.

It was terrible. She screamed at me untill I could barely stand it. But strangely when I begged her to sign the forms she agreed. She told me that if it would get me out of her life for good, then she would gladly do so. And she did. I don't know what that man has done to make her so coldhearted, but it must be aweful. It hurt to hear those words, but hearing Max tell me that he loves me, and seeing the changes taking place help. A lot. I'm happy now. We eloped two days ago and have moved in with him, and with his family. His mother might as well be my mother for as good as she is to me. We'll live here untill Max finishes Highschool- then try to get a house of our own. I hope to get my GED this year.

So really, Im not so bad off anymore. I've- for now- found my place.

And maybe, just maybe, soon I can come back to you guys.

[torres]

OH MY GOSH YOU'RE MARRIED!!!! So exciting!! Congrats... like seriously... but if you're my dad... does this make Max my mom?? hahaha. Anyway, I'm super glad you haven't forgotten us, I miss you bunches!! God moves in mysterious ways, yes?

Love you lots!
Jess

[Collin Sivlin]

BAHAHA I guess it does xD I'll make sure to tell him that he has a new adopted daughter... who is older than him I think. lol

I think I'm having Collin withdrawl or something though, I find myself checking in here more and more often. haha

I'm a messed up person.

[`Miranda Dugger]

omg!!!! if you come back.. i will be reposting to you! got busy my senior year. got a boyfriend. and what not.. so ya.. im busy but glad adda is alright :] glad you found someone :] hope all is well. :]

[Collin Sivlin]

MIRANDA MY LOVELY

I was beginning to think you'd fallen off of the face of the earth!
Seriously. Don't do that.

And I would absolutely love to continue with you, although you must understand that Collin is going to be...well....a whole bunch of stuff xD I was planning to bring him back even if Miranda didn't come back, messed up- confused, and pretty much completely withdrawn and rather angry with the world. BUT since you're back, well *cackles* that just adds more sugar to the frosting. You must PM me so we can work out some smehxay plot stuff. Although I must warn you, I'll be doing very good to post once twice a week. Life may of calmed down for me but I still have a week or so of school, more finals, then testing for my GED hopefully- I have to look into how to do that. Then maybe I can be on more atleast for the summer =]

so glad you're back!